Chapter Sixty-Eight
Next
morning...
Sly carried his bowl of cereal to the kitchen table and sat directly across from his father. "Dad?"
Luke looked up from his newspaper. "What?"
Sly laid his spoon beside his bowl and hesitated for a moment before speaking. Frankie and Alexis had already left for their shopping trip, so he wasn't afraid of being overheard, but he still wondered if he should violate Frankie's privacy by sharing things with his father. "Frankie was crying last night. I could hear him on the other side of the wall. It was after we went to bed. I thought you should know."
Luke cleared his throat and fingered the newspaper as he considered Sly's words. "I'm not concerned if Frankie has a bad moment or two. It's a new house and a new family. He's bound to be overwhelmed at first. But, if you notice he's doing it every night, tell me, okay? For now I think he's fine." Luke regarded his youngest son with affection. "I want to thank you for your help last night. You went out of your way to teach Frankie about the dishwasher without making him feel bad. I wanted to tell you that I noticed. Thanks."
Sly gave his father a slight smile. "I don't mind. He learns quickly. It's no problem." Sly reflected on the fact that his statement was true, but he couldn't help feeling that Frankie's presence was a definite complication. When would things settle down or were they all fated to the drama of continual shootings, bad business deals and upset girlfriends? As much as he'd come to care about his new brother, Frankie's return sure had a jarring impact on all of their lives. It had been a definite rollercoaster for the last two months. Frankie didn't seem to like things calm, but Sly relished a little peace and quiet.
~*~*~*~
Frankie held onto the handgrip on his door as he looked around Alexis' vehicle. She was driving a Ford Expedition, and he'd never ridden in an SUV before. It felt weird sitting up so high and exploring the universe from a different angle. He could see the tops of compact cars as they sped by them, and he laughed out loud.
"What's so funny?" Alexis questioned.
"You're speeding," Frankie replied. "I like to go fast, too."
Alexis frowned as she shot a glance at the speedometer. "I guess I am," she said softly, taking her foot off of the gas pedal to ease down to a more normal rate of speed. "It's hard to feel the road in these vehicles."
"Got dat right," Frankie exclaimed. "Why do ya have a big thing like dis anyway? I thought youd want a Mercedes or a sports car. Isn't dat what lawyers drive? Kind of flashy or somethin'."
Alexis smiled broadly with amusement. "Now how flashy do I seem to you? Have you ever seen me in a flashy moment since you've known me?"
Frankie's keen blue eyes examined his stepmother's appearance, and he nodded slightly in agreement with her. His stepmother was a nice looking woman, but she didn't dress to show it off with her conservative tan and brown color choices and tailored pantsuits. "You're not flashy," he confirmed. "Neither is my dad, so dat's good, huh?" He resumed his silence and watched the traffic out of the window. After a moment, he asked, "Where are we going again?"
Alexis felt concerned as they'd already discussed stopping by Kelly's for a bite of breakfast and then heading for the mall.
"First, Kelly's and then we're going to the mall."
Frankie laughed merrily, but didn't explain.
"You're full of laughs today," Alexis observed, allowing him the room to expand on the topic.
Frankie shrugged. "It's a private joke. Sly used a term, and it took on a different meaning." Going to da mall! Ha-ha.
"Did you recall our conversation this morning?" Alexis asked curiously.
"About where we were going?"
"Yes."
Frankie looked down at his lap. "I dont remember things in da morning sometimes. Ya gotta make sure you tell me a coupla times. Mornings are strange. Even Frank knew he had to tell me twice in da morning."
Alexis looked curiously at her stepson. "It's always been like that?" She was recalling the papers that the psychiatrist had handed each of Frankie's parents, the papers that outlined some of the symptoms of the disorder.
Frankie nodded. "Yeah."
~*~*~*~
"Hiya Ruby!" Frankie waved from his position in the wheelchair that Alexis guided near the diner's counter.
"Frankie!" Ruby beamed at her great nephew. "It's been too long since I've seen you. This is a welcome surprise."
Frankie's eyes shone back at the woman whose attention he'd enjoyed since he first arrived in Port Charles. "We thought we'd surprise ya! Alexis and I are going shopping. We need breakfast first."
Ruby adjusted her apron around her waist. "Well, what can I give you this morning?"
"Toast and tea," Alexis said softly with a barely perceptible nod.
"Da works!" Frankie said firmly. "I want da eggs, bacon and maybe one of dem big blueberry muffins if ya got it." Alexis smiled, grateful that Laura had informed her about Frankie's insecurities regarding his growth and his discomfort with the fact that Sly ate like a horse. It helped explain some of the kid's foibles and his sudden, intense desire for food.
"I think we can manage that," Ruby said brightly. "Alexis, I'll bring your tea right out. Frankie, why dont you keep me company while I round up the grub?"
"Okay," Frankie wheeled his chair, following Ruby into the kitchen while Alexis located an empty table.
"It's very nice of Alexis to take you out today," Ruby commented as she gathered eggs from the refrigerator.
"We're going clothes shopping," Frankie commented offhandedly as his eyes roamed around the kitchen. He remembered the last time he'd been there with Maxie. It had only been a day since he'd last seen her, but he missed her as if it had been a month.
Ruby walked over to Frankie and ruffled his hair. "Don't give her any trouble when you're on your outing," she said casually. "Alexis is your father's wife, so you need to listen to her." Ruby had noted Frankie's casual treatment of Alexis as well as Alexis' insecurities regarding her new stepson, so she wanted to insert the voice of reason before a problem had time to take root.
Frankie shrugged. "It's too
complicated," he complained. "I only had ta listen to Frank when I lived in
"It is an interesting situation," Ruby agreed. "But here's the general principle: listen to the adults around you - your parents, aunts, stepparents, and teachers. Give them respect. Respect is good, and you won't go wrong with it."
Frankie held a thumb to his chest. "People used to respect me," he said wistfully. "Now I'm nobody."
Ruby shook her head as she fried up Frankie's eggs. "No, now you're in your right position in a family who loves you. Being younger doesn't mean that people don't respect you. All of us love as well as respect you. But, it does mean that we have a few years more experience and responsibility. That's why you listen."
"I guess." Frankie halfheartedly kicked against the footrest of his wheelchair. "I'm hungry," he announced.
Ruby held his plate under his nose. "Come join us in the dining room," she said with a twinkle in her eye.
Frankie looked at his great aunt with sincere eyes. "Thanks, Aunt Ruby. I mean it."
"I know," Ruby said jovially as she used her other hand to wheel Frankie toward the door. "I love you, Frankie." She bopped him on top of the head when he used his hands to propel himself forward.
Frankie shot her a smirk. "Dat's 'cause I'm loveable." He giggled at his own sense of humor. "Love ya, too, Ruby!"
~*~*~*~
Nikolas and Athena held hands as they sat at their outdoor dining table, admiring the bright stars in the dark, clear sky and breathing in the soft warm breezes that drifted in from the sea. "I've never had a better dinner, and this is just a hole in the wall restaurant," Nikolas laughed. "I'll have to leave an extra large tip just because I feel so guilty at how little they charged us."
Athena stroked the side of his face. "You're a kind man," she said simply.
Nikolas shrugged and looked away. "Sometimes. Most of the time no."
Athena's face turned serious. "You
have a temper. It angered me when you grabbed me back at the vacation house in
Nikolas' eyes saddened, and he nodded. "I've turned into a bully. I was terrible with my younger brother, and he was smaller and weaker than me - still recovering from surgery. I need to get a grip."
Athena laughed lightly. "You do."
"I have all of these feelings that well up inside of me." He rubbed his face and looked embarrassed. "I'm just going to have to deal with my past. My mother left me. She didn't want to, so I need to accept what happened and move on. It's just that it felt to me like you were leaving in the same way."
"Perhaps talking about it will settle your mind," Athena suggested lightly. "It helps me to talk about my mother. It makes me feel more in control. I like to make plans that don't involve her."
Nikolas laughed appreciatively. "You're right. I've kept everything bottled up inside. It's not healthy. I promise I'll talk to you if I feel bad and not overreact or grab you out of anger. Okay?"
Athena nodded. "That's what I want to hear." Her eyes filled with tears. "Please talk to me when something bothers you. It hurts me to be shut out or ignored. I felt terrible for days on that island. You know I love you, and I do think about marrying you. I was the one who teased you about it on the island. Marry me, marry me, remember?"
Nikolas took her hand and looked into her green eyes. "I remember," he said softly.
"I wasn't joking - not entirely. However, I want you to wait and ask me again in several years, when we're more settled and older."
"I understand." Nikolas' face
took on the appearance of someone much younger and uncertain. "You won't forget about
me at
"No. I plan to study during all my spare time. I'm not interested in some pale Englishman with a bad sense of humor and terrible taste in food and clothes."
"Athena the snob," Nikolas teased.
Athena leaned in for a kiss. "Working on it," she said with a twinkle in her eye.
~*~*~*~
"Dad?" Sly watched his father untangling fishing lines and straightening out his tackle box.
"What is it, son?" Luke asked distractedly, never taking his eyes from the task at hand.
Sly looked sheepish standing in the garage with his hands shoved deeply in his pockets and his shoulders slumped. He'd been feeling uneasy lately, a bit stranded in the Spencer universe. He was secure in his position as Luke's younger son, but he didn't share the genes that Frankie did. Would that make a difference in how their dad felt about him? He worked up his courage and spoke softly. "Dad, are you going to want to do things with me now? You know, just the two of us? Like we used to?"
Luke frowned and stopped what he was doing as he heard the hesitance in his son's voice. He clapped the dirt off his hands and laid the fishing pole against the wall of the garage. "What do you mean, Sly? Are you asking if we'll have some alone time now that Frankie lives in this house?"
Sly blinked in embarrassment nodded quickly, never looking directly at his father.
Luke's face softened with compassion as he realized where his son's insecurities lay. He walked up to Sly and draped an easy arm around the kid's shoulders. "Frankie will be here two weeks a month," he explained. "We'll have plenty of private time, even when he's here. I'm sure there are activities that only you and I will enjoy, as well as ones that Frankie will like that you don't. We'll work it out. If you're feeling neglected, let me know. It's not good letting it bottle up inside, or you'll explode. And then, I'd have to insist that you clean up the mess you left behind."
Sly laughed and kicked out at a rusty pail. His dad always seemed to find the right thing to say to make him feel better. He was glad that he'd confided in him. "Okay. I just wanted to know. I like spending time with you."
"And I like you, too," Luke replied casually. "Are you going to kick the bucket that will hold our fish?" he scolded. "It can only take one or two more kicks."
"And then it'll kick the bucket," Sly finished for him.
"The kid catches on quickly," Luke said. "Mighty quick in the mind he is."
Sly grinned at his dad's silly humor. Maybe it was extra strong in the genes because he had it, too. All the Spencers were silly at times. Even Alexis' was likely to be infected sooner or later.
~*~*~*~
"Frankie? How are you doing in there?" Alexis positioned herself outside of the men's dressing room with her hands on her hips. Frankie had been in there for a long time, and she was starting to worry. He had four outfits to try on, but she thought he'd had plenty of time to evaluate them.
Frankie had been lucky to find a room that was large enough to accommodate his wheelchair, but he still felt hemmed into the small space. He'd made a mental note to check and ensure that all of his properties worldwide, even in countries that didn't require it, had the necessary handicap accessibility. It was real hard to get around in a big hunk of metal with wheels. He could have managed on his crutches but not for the long length of time and distance that were required for shopping. He looked around the room forlornly. It had been difficult to find places to place his clothing as he didn't want to continually get up and down from the chair. After his first outfit, he'd grown winded and shaky from an impending panic attack. He'd spent the last fifteen minutes attempting to stymie the rage of feelings that kept threatening to swirl through him. He'd been claustrophobic for a long time - years - and this arrangement wasn't helping him. Nerves from an outing with a woman he didn't know very well, and shopping for clothes in public for the first time ever when he'd been accustomed to tailor made clothing combined to jangle on his nerves. He bent over in his wheelchair, clutching the new clothes in a tense fist. He'd quickly changed back into his own clothing when he'd felt the first grip of a panic attack. He had broken out into a cold sweat and was now sobbing lightly from the stress of it all. He was tired and felt as if he'd never have an ounce of energy again in his whole life, but he didn't want to look bad and admit this to his new stepmother. For some reason she seemed awfully excited to be doing this with him. But now he was trapped in a tiny room with no way out since he couldnt manage to try on all these clothes. The tears of frustration flowed from his eyes, and he jumped when he heard her voice again.
Alexis poked her head in the changing area, aware that no other men were in there to be startled by her presence. "Frankie? Are you decent? Can I come in for a second?" All she heard were soft sobs, and she grew concerned as she approached the door and knocked. "Frankie, I'm going to open the door, okay?" She paused but heard no reply, so she creaked the unlocked door open an inch or two. "Honey, are you okay? I can hear you crying. Are you feeling all right? I didn't overload you with clothes, did I?"
"Yes," she heard him answer in a tentative, teary reply.
"Can I come in for a sec?"
"Yes, but dere's no room."
Alexis opened the door, and her heart hurt to see Frankie sitting dejected in his wheelchair, crying with his head down and clothes scattered around him.
"Did you find something you like?" she asked gently.
Frankie lifted up an outfit clenched firmly in his fist. "Dis is fine," he said in a soft, breathy voice. He lifted his elbow to wipe off his tears and cursed to himself for making a scene in front of Alexis. But, he couldn't help himself. He felt trapped and overwhelmed.
"Let me check the sizes of those clothes, and maybe we can pick out a few other items in the same size," Alexis said sensibly. Her sharp eyes detected how firmly Frankie was wedged into the room. "Do you have claustrophobia?"
Frankie nodded wordlessly and sighed. He had started to recover from his panic almost as soon as Alexis had opened the door.
"Let's wheel you out of there, then," she said lightly as she squeezed behind him and pushed the chair. "I'll hang up the items that you don't want."
"Dey're all okay," he conceded. "I dont know why I gotta wear dis type of stuff, though. I like da nice, tailored clothes. People respect you when you're wearing expensive stuff dat's cut right."
Alexis patted Frankie on the back. "Yes, they do, but they also recognize that you need some down time and entertainment. We're buying you clothes so you can go fishing with your father and maybe participate in some sports activities with Sly when you're up to it."
"I've never been fishing," Frankie informed her.
~*~*~*~
"I die of hunger when I go shopping with you," Robin laughed. "I must use
up more energy laughing." She squeezed Maxie's shoulder in a sisterly hug.
Frankie wordlessly raised his eyebrows in question.
"Cheese fries...nectar of the gods."
"Like me and Nikolas."
"It feels wonderful to be out in the wilderness, in the open air, free to be yourself," Luke said expansively as he dropped the fishing gear near the lake.
"I can just watch since dis is my first time," Frankie offered helpfully.
"Wow," Frankie said in amazement. "He's neat."
"But he did!" Frankie protested. "It's our fault."
Alexis laughed at her husband.
"Kick a man when he's down," he complained.